Oh how much I miss you, ya habibi, ya noor al aini….

I thought its gonna be different when I come back home, I thought I will not yearn for it that much…But its the same…even more…

When I think seriously about it, I am sure its just the need to change the whole life, to start from the beggining. But thats not gonna erase all things that happened to me by now, its not going to take away all I want to be away from me. Dunya is dunya, no matter where in earth you are, Cairo, Sarajevo, New York, Makkah, Kuala Lumpur or any other place. You can not run away from it, untill Allah says so.

Sometimes I get this feeling, this strong, strong need to be close to Him, to see nothing but Him, to think abt nothing but Him, to want nothing but Him…Only with Him I am safe…

Yarab make my heart beat only for You and please please please dont leave me, dont leave me to my self, without Your love, care and protection. I know I didnt deserve it, but I love You so much….

Hadiqa Al Azhar is a place where you feel like you are not in dunya…beautiful done, you can always see lots of people there, spending time with their families and enjoying their time, but really enjoying. Me too, I enjoyed a BIG TIME, and I am sharing a few photos with you :)

Just few photos, for those who love this beautiful city :)

finally alhamdulillah got a minute to write here something :) i am in Cairo for already 10 days, started with course and doing great alhamdulillah:)) getting used to the crowd here, cars everywhere, its soooooooooooooooooooo hot, really…..during the day I am usually not leaving the home, alhamdulillah i have classes in the morning. I am bored a little, cuz I didn’t bring any of my books or magazines, so actually have nothing to do if I don’t study… hey you guys from Cairo, anyone knows where I could buy some Islamic books and magazines in English? I would really appreciate every advice…
I miss my family and friends so so so much… I didn’t even think it could be this hard….inshallah bil khair….running home now, its getting terribly hot outside :))

Ten days left. Next Monday morning I will go. To Cairo. I will finally see my dream becoming a true.

My mind is in some kind of really strange condition. Like I am watching my self preparing and all those stuff from some distance. Like watching the movie, “My life”. Strange. When I am thinking of leaving my girls, I just shake my head, trying not think about it. At least not yet. Ya Allah give me strenght.

I am going after my dream, but leaving my heart here. I am gonna meet my love there, the man I love for three years. I will learn that language which words makes me melt. I will renew my self so I can be able to continue with my fight here. I have to go. Ya Allah give me strenght. I will leave my heart here.

God…After all that fight with Mr. Director, after getting scholarship, buying the ticket and all, all, all - guys at the Egyptian embassy are making problems with the visa. Really. First I was waiting to speak with the lady responsible for it, and while waiting some crazy guy proposed my friend ,who is already married by the way, and she was repeating her self all the time: I am married, I am married…, but the guy wasn’t stopping!! If there was someone else in the waiting room, he kept silent, but as soon as they would leave the room, we could hear the question: You are married, no??!! Allahumma yarab!!

The guy sitting next to me was sleeping (at work, in the embassy!!!) They were all smoking sooooooo much that I could hardly breathe. The ash-bin was full totally and the table around it was so dirty. There were at least 50 flies around us. I just wanted to get the heck out of there.

Finaly I was honored, after one hour of waiting, to speak with the lady, but she has told me (literary): Counselor said that you should come tomorrow, maybe you will get the visa, maybe you will not. But my advice is: don’t come tomorrow, just call me to see what is going on. Can you believe it!??? Only one guy at reception(the only one who could speak at least little bit of English and off course non of them is speaking Bosnian), was kind and told me not to worry with a nice smile on his face.

Today counselor said: Take it easy, she will get the visa, let her wait few days. Ya Allah . Ya Allaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!

Do3as needed, plz.

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah I’ve got the visaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. :) Huh…..I felt like jumping, singing, dancing in the hall, but there is people here ;)

Thanks guys, for all your du’as, so so so much. I have the best friends EVER. I wish I can say their names here, but they would kill me :)) Alefyah thank you honey. Your support meant a lot to me. And thanks for all your coments guys, I really appriciate it.

Salaams to all,

It seems that my dream will become a true!!! :)) There is (a very good:)) possibility for me to go to study Arabic language. Guess where?:) In Cairoooooooooooooooo.Yes! Ya rabb, I can’t believe yet. I am trying not to get too excited (its VERY hard, believe me), because there is still much time to it ( june inshaAllah) and I need to do many many things before I go, but walla I feel butterflies in stomach:) SubhnaAllah…Plz, plz, plz do3a needed soooo much