I heard someone said once, that zikr (dhikr-remembering Allah with your heart and tongue) for people is like the water for fish.. Means - its life accually…for your heart, for the health of your mind, for your ability to make good deeds, for all whats good in you..

Well..I felt like real looser when I remembered these words…Accually when I am thinking of the days of Ramadhan which are gone I feel like a looser..yarab…is my heart like this coz I am not making enough zikr? Is my heart like this coz I am too busy with the dunya stuff (which are my home, my children and my job, means I have to be concern about it!!) ? I just cant find myself in all this. I am kinda loosing my self in it. But really. I am becoming really worried. Ya rabb, ya Allah , ya Al Wadood, are Your doors closed for me, this slave who loves You so much, but feel like munafiq coz not showing You that love??

If You dont allow me to be Your servant, I am lost.

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Tonight is the night :)

Even there are still three days till the beginning of the blessed month of Ramadan, everything around seems to be extremely happy: D (including the writer of these words, soooooooooo much).

MashaAllah…:D Walla even the air smells different, everybody is talking only about that, where will go to the first Taraweeh, who to invite to the first iftar, in which mosque Taraweeh will be prayed by whole Qur’an, in which mosque will be Qiyam al Layl…..:D Really wonderful….

The thing that I have also noticed is that people expect so much of this Ramadan…Many of my friends (including me again, hehe) has plan how to get rid of some things that are not good inshaAllah during the time when shaitan will be imprisoned and when Allah ’s rahmah will be around His slaves more than in any other time.

We all hope for our hearts to be clean from any thing that can affect bad in our relationship with our beloved Rabb, Allah al Wadood. We hope and yearn for His mercy and love. We ask for His help, to give us strength to make these plans real.

We ask from Him to give us generosity so we will help to the needy ones, following the steps of our Rasulillah, in this like in everything else.

And hope to continue to live “in Ramadan”, even if our guest will be away…..

Ramadan mubarak to all of you, may Allah ’s love and mercy be on you & your families!

I was all worried this morning and thinking how will I manage today at the office, coz I really wanted to stay at home. I left Amr Khaled’s book “Healing of the heart” at my desk and really wanted to stay in bed, having nice long coffee&reading that excellent kitaab. But I had to come…

So anyways…I went to see my friend A in her office, to see a friendly face at least, hoping I will feel better. But………………..I didnt only saw a friendly face, I have got a BEAUTIFUL gift!!!!!!

Ok, the story is following:

I am bothering her for days about her new perfume (”Far Away”), saying how nice it is and how I like the smell of it so much. I even called her in the office saying: Haram alaiki, you left the smell of your parfume all over the place, so I can feel it :D hehe. But this morning she brought that parfume as a gift to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy, I was just so happy :))

Knowing that is her favorite perfume and that was impossible to find it here in the stores, and knowing that I said something not really so nice to her this morning (see the explanation for that in the beginning of this post) it just made the story soooooooo…oh just so wonderful. B7hbik habibtiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, thank you&jazakillah kol khair :)

Yeah…good frineds still exist…alhamdulillah for that.

Being away from the office few days and spending some time with my girls was really great idea. I remembered I have a life. Truly important things to care and think about.

I need to focus on it. FOCUS.FOCUS.

To be a good mother&father at the same time, for two beautiful girls.

To make their childhood happy and without any burden. They had it enough by now.

To raise them to be good muslimahs, to love Allah &His deen in environment that is all but islamic.

To make them realise that Islam is the only way to have life worth of living, even if they see their mother so tired from this life sometimes.

To be strong, so I will not be so tired from it, but rather I will have more sabr&trust in my Allah .

To depend only on Him. To trust only Him.

I stopped thinking about my muslim “sisters” who stole my project on orphans, that I was working on it SO hard. They did it with smile and saying Allah ’s name.

I stopped thinking about muslim “sister” who is full of envy&jelousy that is coming not only from her mounth, but even trough her eyes and her every move.  May Allah protect me&my girls from all that can hurt us in any way. Amin yarab.

I kept saying to my self thats not islam. No. Islam is something else. Islam is perfect. People are not.

Sorry “sisters”, I have more important things to think about. Leave you to Allah .