Feeling away from You is something that comes to me from time to time…Without some particular reason, not in some particular time…just like that - it comes. And takes me away from You. I am sure I do something to make the job for shaitan easier. I am sure I am the one who makes the step back. But it sucks. Big time.

I hate being away from You. I miss You so much. I miss talking to You, I miss the tranquilty You give me after I cry in front of You…I miss Your care in small things You give me every day. I miss You so much. Wallahi yarab, I miss You so much. Don’t leave me without You.

  

My joy –

My Hunger –

My Shelter –

My Friend –

My Food for the journey –

My journey’s End –

You are my breath,

My hope,

My companion,

My craving,

My abundant wealth.

Without You — my Life, my Love –

I would never have wandered across these endless countries.

You have poured out so much grace for me,

Done me so many favors, given me so many gifts –

I look everywhere for Your love –

Then suddenly I am filled with it.

O Captain of my Heart

Radiant Eye of Yearning in my breast,

I will never be free from You

As long as I live.

Be satisfied with me, Love,

And I am satisfied.

Rabi’a al Basri

  

ok, I found a post of beautiful Digital Jewel http://jawharah.wordpress.com/tag/my-deen/ramadhaan/, its very nice. Thanks sis :)

  

There is so little time left to Ramadhn, ppl!~ Alhamdulillah that we have another chance and opportunity to enjoy in this blessed month, when we can gain jannah and ask for Allah ’s mercy and love…..Isn’t even the air smells different during Ramadan? :)

I was trying to find some nice, inspirational posts or articles about how to make this Ramadan beneficial for urself and how to remain strong in ibadah after Ramadan goes away, but I was pretty disappointed….Maybe cuz some ppl think its still far away? I dunno….

What I found was boring and not really interesting…Anyone has some suggestions?

  

No matter how much I try, its really hard to understand you sometimes…Maybe because your eyes are not in front of me, maybe because I cannot hold your hand, maybe that’s why…Maybe not…Maybe we just don’t think the same, don’t feel the same. Maybe I expect too much from you, maybe you really give so little. Or I am just blind to certain things?? Maybe this distance between us makes things so difficult. But what if it is going to be the same if we do live together? Maybe we don’t love each other? What are these feelings then?

Allah knows the best…May He leads us to the best, in dunya and in akhirah…But if its khair to be without you, I ask Him from His mercy for His help…because it is going to hurt so much…

At the end He is the Creator and Lord of our hearts, they are between His fingers…maybe He will make our hearts beat together and fill them with love, make them understand each other?

  

I thought its gonna be different when I come back home, I thought I will not yearn for it that much…But its the same…even more…

When I think seriously about it, I am sure its just the need to change the whole life, to start from the beggining. But thats not gonna erase all things that happened to me by now, its not going to take away all I want to be away from me. Dunya is dunya, no matter where in earth you are, Cairo, Sarajevo, New York, Makkah, Kuala Lumpur or any other place. You can not run away from it, untill Allah says so.

Sometimes I get this feeling, this strong, strong need to be close to Him, to see nothing but Him, to think abt nothing but Him, to want nothing but Him…Only with Him I am safe…

Yarab make my heart beat only for You and please please please dont leave me, dont leave me to my self, without Your love, care and protection. I know I didnt deserve it, but I love You so much….